Brown Nuggets

2010

Happy New Year again I guess...

The first nine years of the decade sure went by fast enough and now we're down to our last year. My last year of being in my twenties. Woohooo... It feels like I'm riding on a snowsled and going way too fast. I have no brakes to slow down and we're going too fast for me to jump off.

Despite what the media has been saying about the noughties, the terrorism and economic woes we faced, looking back, i must say that i have been tremendously blessed and sheltered from most of the problems faced by the rest of the world.

Here's what happened in my life in a nutshell:

2001 & 2002 - Went down under (more specifically, to Perth -Murdoch University) where I fell in love, learnt some important lessons and spent two amazing years. Came back with a degree and a passion to live and work overseas.

Start of 2003 - Found solace in exercise and dance when I realized that I was going to be stuck in Singapore for a long time. The gym became an outlet for me to channel my anger (towards my father and the helplessness I felt in how my life turned out). I danced like I had never danced before but only within the constraints of the studio. I lost 10 kilos and had my first taste of popularity. Oh.. and I learnt how to be self-conscious. Not sure if that's a good thing...

June 2003 to June 2005- Snagged my first job and slogged for about 2 years (the second of which was simply too much for me to bear) before realizing that I was not cut out for desk bound work. I travelled back to Perth to visit my then boyfriend twice a year and he would come back twice a year for holidays. The song "Leaving on a jet plane" took on a special meaning for me and I would start crying buckets whenever it was time for us to part. No, he wasn't going away for war but it certainly felt like it at that time. Two years and barely any savings. I remember how I hated my life then and how depressed I felt. I kept thinking I was stuck in a poverty trap where the rich just keep getting richer and the poor keep getting poorer. Haha... Oh I was so happy when I finally broke free. The relationship ended about the same time. In fact, I think that was the catalyst for my career switch. Anyway, it was turning point in my life. A good and bad time.

August 2005 to July 2008 - Leapt into the fitness industry where I spent 3 fabulous year. Who needs a degree? I would wake up every morning and tell myself to stay positive. What a great attitude I developed. Even though things weren't always smooth sailing, I believed with all my heart that nothing bad would happen to me. I was thankful for every good thing that came my way and maximized every free period I had. I started baking. I stopped dancing. I learnt to be flexible and surf the waves of life. Everything happened for a reason and I was sure there were lessons to be learnt. I started building relationships with people and clients. Along the way, after a couple of disastrous relationships, I gave up on ever finding the one. I became very self-centred and I am not proud of that.

July 2008 to date - The doors of heaven opened and a dream job landed right smack on my lap. Muahahahaa... who would have ever thought that boring, tomboyish, plain-Jane me, would have ever have gotten a job as an air hostess!? Then, I didn't know the first thing about make-up or skincare. And now, I'm on to my 2nd year and loving it. I learnt how to be a proper lady, paint my face and nails, be subservient and in exchange, I get to see the world. I may never get a chance to live and work overseas but this is surely better! I have learnt to appreciate Singapore a lot more (now that I've travelled to some exotic shitholes) and to be based at home and still be able to travel to a million other destinations is definitely worth all the toilets I have to clean and all the nonsense from colleagues or passengers that I have to put up with. I've finally found "the one" and I'm learning everyday to be more generous, patient and compassionate. I have re-ignited my love for reading and I work well with people.

I know we have another 12 months to go before the end of the decade but somehow I feel I have done so much already. Can I do more? Perhaps one good way for me to end the noughties would be with a new direction in my life - Gearing towards helping others now that I am so comfortable emotionally and financially + Finally starting to write something for publication. There is really no excuse. I have free time, I have inspiration, I have gained life experience, and I have a new 11 inch laptop. I am definitely a stronger, happier, and more well-rounded person than I was 9 years ago. And my salary has only been going up, up, up. Thank you God!

posted by Pocahontas @ 11:06 PM