Brown Nuggets

Circle of Life

I'm happily in love and enjoying my travels but somehow I seem to have lost purpose and direction in my life. Or perhaps I didn't even have purpose or direction to begin with and have merely come to realize that recently.

Would you consider travelling and seeing the world a goal in life? What happens after I've climbed every church tower, explored the most famous of cities, experienced every sort of adventure and seen the most magnificent scenery the world has to offer? Well travelled but so what? How does that make me a better person?

Can I really absorb the world like a sponge? Experience living a hundred lives in a hundred different cities? Understand how it ticks? So what if I can? How does it change anything? Have I become more compassionate? Am I more understanding? Do I know my place in the world now? Where and how can I help to make it a better place?

Maybe this is a wake up call. Not to leave my career. No. But to take stock of my life and how I have been spending my time. Before, I was like a thirsty birch wanting to see, to learn to experence. And for over a year I have done nothing but drink. Now it seems have almost drunk my fill. It is time for me to give back. To start watering the earth.

I've been getting the same sense of displacement I felt when I first started flying. Only these days I have plenty of time which I waste away sleeping or immersing myself in fictional worlds. Maybe I am being too hard on myself. Maybe my body is just spent and in need of rest. And reading is good. It stirs up creative juices and inspires me to think and write.

I haven 't been exercising much the last 2 weeks. Getting so sick of running and not seeing results so I have decided to just focus on cutting down my food intake for awhile. I expend less, I consume less. Still I know it won't be too long before I start working out again.

posted by Pocahontas @ 5:58 PM